What's up?

I am trying, I am really trying to Trust, to forgive, to be forgiven, to be decent. It just seems to be raining 'shite' today and yesterday and the other days. I am really, DEAR LORD, at the bottom. Having to take a leave of absence from work, no pay check after Friday. An ex husband who is autistic, and seriously ill. I am trying to be thankful.. to be grateful, that we do have an income, that we have food and a roof over our head. But, right now at this moment.. it is very hard to see anything but the rain on our heads.

And I am mad... quite literally pissed off.. at God.. at this and this song seems to fit very well. I can't help it, its what I feel.. along with all the other things right now. And, I do know it's not about me at this moment in time.. but if I am to have an honest and real relationship with the One with my heavenly father then, I must say it all. I don't have to act.. but I have to, as the song says below, get it out of my head.




What’s Up?

25 years AND my life and still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
I realised quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made FOR this
Brotherhood of man
For whatever that means

[Chorus:]
And So I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
JUST To get it all out what's in my head
AND I, I Am feeling a little peculiar
AND So I wake in the morning and I step
Outside AND I take deep breath
AND I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's goin' on

And I SING hey-YEAH-YEA-EAH, EAH HEY YEA YEA
I said hey! what's goin' on
And I SING hey-YEAH-YEA-EAH, EAH HEY YEA YEA
I said hey! what's goin' on

OOOH, OO! OOH-HOO-HOO-HOO-HOO
OO-OOH-HOO-HOO-HOO-HOOOO
OOOH! OOO-AAH-HOO-HOO-HOO-HOO
OO-OOH-HOO-HOO-HOO-HOOOO Whats up?


And I try, oh my God do I try
I try all the time
In this institution
And I pray, oh my God do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution


[Chorus:]
And So I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
JUST To get it all out what's in my head
AND I, I Am feeling a little peculiar
AND So I wake in the morning and I step Outside
AND I take deep breath
AND I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's goin' on

And I SING hey-YEAH-YEA-EAH, EAH HEY YEA YEA
I said hey! what's goin' on
And I SING hey-YEAH-YEA-EAH, EAH HEY YEA YEA
I said hey! what's goin' on

And I SING hey-YEAH-YEA-EAH, EAH HEY YEA YEA I said hey! what's goin' on
And I SING hey-YEAH-YEA-EAH, EAH HEY YEA YEA
I said hey! what's goin' on