Ordinary things are... well ordinary. And I have had a few ordinary days, in an extra- ordinary God filled landscape of days. I have repeatedly said.. I am trying to redefine my relationship with God.. and you know.. that is a big deal.. for God.. and for me too.
It means that I can't fall back on old definitions or expectations of how God will react, or try to fall back on MY old behaviors. Which I have been doing in my humane-ness. Knowing God intimately is a or should be a voluptuous, round and succulent experience. I am using feminine type adjectives here on purpose because.. I have a way that I see God that is not feminine. It is rigid, rule bound and well.. OFWG. Yet, how can that be the nature of God, is the wind rigid? Is the Air we breathe scentless and sterile. And neither are we.. and we were created in Love to be Loved by God.
I think God might be messy, and I like that, for creative minds are rarely tidy. How could a creator who created the senses be anything but messy? Now I have skirted the gender issue here about God because.. It just is too big in our little world. And the only way I can really think of this triumvirate Glory is as God the ALL_ Jesus the Son and the Holy Spirit_ the blessed wind. God of this is definately Feminine to me in so many ways here.
I feel today that trying to put a fence around my understanding is like trying to shove a huge feather pillow, down into a small Pillowcase. Everytime I shove one bit in.. another pokes up somewhere else.
So ordinary.. but so Not. Today I feel limited by My Ordiaryness.. and inablility to define God.
So this is a day when in the ordinary, I find the Extra ordinary of Grace. The space between me and God.. and Jesus and the Spirit. And it is in the lack of my ability to be articulate, shiny and wonderful.. that I find messy, succulent and voluptuous ... JOY and PEACE beyond understanding in a very Humane.. way.
That's all today.. just Joy and Peace.. in a very ordinary day.
Janny
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Hi Janny,
ReplyDeleteI am Andy Little, author of Ministry From Two Poles, among other blogs. It strikes me as interesting that we come from almost opposite experiences, but end up in similar places.
I am a Brit who lived in Australia and the U.S. for most of my life, and am now living in upstate New York. This article, in particular, is interesting because I ahve been wrestling with the notions of a churhc without walls and a virtual church. It sounds as if you have the second under your belt. I will reading more to learn something in this regard.
Meanwhile, blessings to you, Andy
Thanks Andy, I really enjoy reading your blog and pick through it daily, catching up, reading and pondering.
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